How would you feel? UPDATED

My BFF just called to tell me that she is having her daughters 1st birthday party on Sunday but if I wanna come I'll have to come after the party and after her friend leaves that we used to go to church with because she dosen't like us because when my son was 7 he gave her daughter a peck on her check at age 5 and she took it sexually. I honestly feel hurt by this. This is the 2nd time shes done this with a birthday party. Last one was back in September with her 13yr old daughter she invited my 14yr old daughter to go to dollywood and then a week prior said the other friends kids were going so change of plans. I'm just so hurt over it all.

This was 9yrs ago when peck on the check happened

UPDATE: I texted her this at nearly 5am this morning after sitting up all night crying. Sure hope it dosen't make me sound bad.

Hey... I just wanted to let you know that when you told me last night about B*****(babys name) birthday party Sunday and I could come but I would have to come AFTER the party was over because of K****(the girl that dosen't want me around name) really hurt me. And the fact it's on a Sunday and you mentioned because my husband would or wouldn't allow me to go also bothered me. The fact that you are forced to make a choice to whom your friends with or have in your home blows my mind. That's not a friend that makes you choose. This is the 2nd time with a party that I've been told that we can show up AFTER she leaves. S*****(my daughters name) was excited about Dollywood and that oddly changed and now the baby's birthday. That be like me saying.. I'm having a wedding but your not welcomed to come or show up until after this person leaves for the day. Why would you wanna come after a celebration? I cried after getting off the phone with ya cause it hurt a lot. I feel treated the same way K**** has done us and you have just listened to her for far to long. She has issues that obviously need fixed by Councling and I'm tired of this childish game they have going on for years now. One day she likes ya and the next she's talking about ya. I love you T**(supposedly my BFF name) very much but I refuse to be hidden just because someone whispers in your ear they won't show up if me or my family is around. It's been 9yrs time to push forward. Not sure why I'm always last when it comes to her I thought friends we're equal at least that's how I see it. But this really hurt me and I'm not trying to start an argument but that's truly messed up in so many ways. Wish you wouldn't even had mentioned it to me honestly. I'd rather of not known then be half invited 😔. I kinda see were I stand and it is what it is. I'll leave the 🍪 cookie money above my sun visor in my Truck on the driver side just leave the cookie🍪🍪 there if you don't mind. I'll put it out there around noon time. My door is always opened when your ready to have more then just 1 friend. But for now it's best I just leave you 2

be🥺🤧 been up half the night cause it's been bothering me plus the baby isn't well. I love you and I wish you all the best and saying hello if you see me out and about is still welcomed. I'm sorry for not being better then K**** I truly am. I love you. I'm sorry.