Okay so.. growing up I wasn’t introduced to sex other than the “sperm meets the egg” talk. I got with my fiancé when I was 15 and I’ve only been with 2 other guys and that’s when me and my fiancé were broken up for like 6 months because I was unsure of our relationship. Anyways my mom always made me feel ashamed of asking about periods, porn, sex and orgasms stuff like that she didn’t like those topics. I’ve never Masterbated or watched porn I’ve always felt dirty if I do like even search it I feel like my mom would find out. She’s messed my sex life up tbh 😂 I’m 20 now btw. Anyways me and my fiancé haven’t been very like “spontaneous” let’s just say many positions aren’t good for us because he’s.. kind of.. like.. small? He is really chunky too so it’s hard for me to get pleasure. Lately I feel like I’ve been missing out so I googled some porn and I found a facial cleansing vibrating brush and got to it. At first I was like wtf is this? And then I was like just get into maybe it’ll happen and then all of a sudden my body started like shaking in this weird pleasuring way.. and I had the desire to moan! Like a real fucking moan. I know my man is going to like get made fun of because of this but that’s why it’s anon. Anyways. I squirted🤭 and it felt amazing that I giggled after and I was like.. damn. But now I feel guilty because I did it like without his help.. what do I dooooo ☹️