I miss my sister.

Hi, my little sister is turning 11 today.

She lives with her dad because our mom lost custody a few years ago. Well I moved a few states away so I'm allowed to text occasionally and see how she's doing, but my brother and sister aren't allowed to see or talk to her at all because they might still talk to our mom; and her dad doesn't want our mom to know anything at all about her anymore.

Which I can kind of understand, our mom was abusive. But she's gotta miss her siblings, she was raised with us until like age 9 and hasn't really seen any of us since.

Anyway I texted him to tell her happy birthday (I wanted to call but idk if he'll let me, and I'm so anxious and upset that I can't physically hug her.)

I just hope she doesn't miss us too much, and I hope we don't have to wait til she's 18 to see her again.

I wish I could have sent her a present in the mail at the very least.

I wish I could actually be there to celebrate her birthday and let her know that I love her.

I wish I didn't move so far away, or that I had the money to go back, so she didn't feel alone.

I just wish i never moved so far away- I got away from the abuse and have calmed my ptsd a bit since leaving, but the depression sucks and my heart still hurts and. I MISS HER. I just hope she knows.