advice please

Katherine

ok so long story short i’ve been with my

husband for 11 years since we started dating we have 3 beautiful kids back in 2014we split up for a year bc he started using drugs and was acting stupid thinking i was messing with his dad after a year we started going out again i ended up pregnant of our second boy he wasn’t in drugs anymore but he did drank and got a DUI for crashing his car well he wasn’t supposed to drink at all he’s still on probation and now we have our third baby she’s 1 already he’s still on his last year of probation but he’s already drinking again he’s doing it almost everyday after work and the shit that gets me it’s that everytime he drinks he starts telling me that he should kill me today he said it infront of my oldest daughter he always says he’s playing but i’m not about to take that from him they say drunk and mad people say the truth i’m honestly afraid of him i’m currently not working so i can’t move out right away with my kids but honestly i feel trapped idk if my kids are going to be mad at me idk how he’s going to react once i tell him i don’t wanna be with him like this idk if one day he’ll be drunk enough and actually act up on his words one of my aunts was killed for leaving her husband and i’m afraid that the same thing will happen to me but i’m not happy in this relationship anymore!