Let me just start by saying I know that abortion is a very sensitive topic so I apologize to those who I may offend in advance.

I am currently pregnant with my first child. Was not a planned pregnancy but we were going with the flow kind of thing. Like if it happens it happens. I had tried for a baby for so long and it finally happened. I am now 10 weeks and 2 days. However, this whole relationship with me and the dad is a fucking mess. He has stressed me out so bad during this short period of time that I have been pregnant. Just Found out today his ex was also pregnant and was due in November and I am due in October. Found out while I was at his house this week in the basement throwing up my guts, that his ex was upstairs. Also found out he had been on the phone with her while packing his luggage for his trip (I was sitting right there). So yeah he was on the phone with this girl dead in my face playing as if it was one of his guy friends. He has lied about soooo much, I’m finding out this ex hasn’t went anywhere at all. She’s still around! He cries and pleads every time I find out things. He’s a compulsive liar and a fucking narcissist. I am stressed to the point where I could lose this baby at any given moment. I never envisioned that I’d be carrying a baby for a man like this. I don’t mean to sound harsh but I don’t want to continue on with this pregnancy because of this. I want to be done with him and I mean completely done. Where we have absolutely no connections. But I know if I have a kid it’s impossible to do. I also don’t want to have the baby then turn around and be one of those miserable women that keeps him away. Because it has crossed my mind to do so if I continue with the pregnancy. I even said that if I continued on I wouldn’t tell him. He’s just gonna have to find out when the baby gets here or something. I don’t know if it’s my hormones or what but I just feel so many different ways. What should I do? I feel like I’m losing my sanity 😢 I don’t want this man in my life but i feel like by having a child he has to stay connected to me. Like I’m obligated to talk to him. I don’t want to 😢😔 I want him out my life so bad. I don’t want him anywhere near me. He has stressed me out so bad. Words can’t even explain. Wow smh