Aghhhhhh

AF due tomorrow and I still got a negative test this morning but I’m having NO period symptoms! Usually cramp pretty badly for several days and spot for a day or two, so this is VERY strange for me.

On top of that, I sucked at OPKs this month and I didn’t bbt because we were traveling during my fertile window. Since we would be in a different time zone part of the month, I knew bbt would be pointless, and I was so bad about my OPKs...like I never even got a clear positive but I think it’s because my urine was diluted and my sleep cycle was all wacky and I was peeing at weird times and because of the jet lag some days I was waking up 3 hours earlier than other days so idk... but part of me is like what if I didn’t even ovulate this month?

I’m just so frustrated like I just want to be pregnant and get my BFP but if I’m not then I just want to get my period! I honestly am so confused at the moment and I HATE that I have so much hope since I’m still getting BFN 😭 I told my hubby what was going on today and his eyes just lit up with SO much hope and excitement and I’m like omg no, now I can’t stand to let him down if I’m not...

PLEASE just let me be pregnant 😫🤞🏻 TTC is taking such a toll on me and Im just so ready to be a mom.