Hey mamas,

I am having a really hard time right now. I’m a couple weeks into the third trimester and I can feel myself falling back into this nasty depression, and I’m anxious on top of it. My first trimester was really hard on me for the same reason. I think hormonally, I’m just all over the place, but I struggled for a good two months in the beginning of pregnancy. I really don’t want to spend the last 2-3 months the same way.

I feel my child kicking every day and feel eternally grateful. I love him more than anything I can possibly imagine and yet I feel detached. Like this isn’t real and there’s no possible way I’m going to have a baby to take care of in less than 12 weeks. I’m emotionally exhausted, angry, lashing out and it feels like I can’t catch a break. Realistically I KNOW I have so many blessings. Life is okay. Even with the virus and all of the crazy that’s happening right now, I know things will turn out. But in this moment, I just want to find a way to talk myself out of the worst of it.

Please tell me what worked for you pre/postpartum dealing with feelings like this. I have worked extremely hard to become the person who processes emotions with time and care and I’ve been so proud of the progress I’ve made after dealing with anxiety issues years ago. I’ve become easy going for my own sanity more than anything but geez.. that’s just not the case right now.

This is me asking for advice and venting simultaneously, so thank you if you read it all and thank you for any suggestions you have. I’m just trying to enjoy these last few months and feel okay with my day to day. Everyone be safe and take extra special care of yourself right now and I’ll be trying to do the same.

Thanks,

Lu