I just need to vent in a supportive space because my anxiety is starting to overwhelm me. This has been a hard week for everyone with coronavirus upending normal life. It was difficult for me as I adjusted to working from home and felt the positive energy I've been trying to maintain fade day by day. Week 6 is a tough milestone for me. I've never been past it with any of my previous pregnancies. With my first I made it until 3 days before my first ultrasound at 10 weeks when I started cramping and spotting. A scan at the ER showed me at about 6w4d. I lost my others around 5 weeks.

This is my first FET. I have had cramping since my transfer, but the clinic says don't worry. I had spotting during week 4, but good betas. Now I'm 2 days before my scan and I started spotting again and feel like my cramps have changed. All week I've been having nightmares that we go for our scan and it is another missed MC. I struggle with depression and anxiety under normal circumstances and feel like I'm drowning with this. My husband is supportive but also an eternal optimist who refuses to even consider the worst.

I know my fears will be laid to rest or realized on Monday and that there is nothing I can do to change anything in the meantime. I'm just really struggling here.

Thanks for reading all this if you made it this far and best of luck to all of us on this journey. Stay healthy, stay safe.