So my bf has this friend that I kinda thought was a friend. He is gay and I tell him things like problems. I have with my bf because I don’t know who else to talk to then my bf. And one time my bf want to try butt stuff but I thought It was gross and told him no. He was sad and I just didn’t know if I made the right choice so I went to talk to his gay friend. He said I should do this give that to him and then the problem came when he said “if you love him. You will do it for him” and just know in the past I was over control thinking the person is right and I am wrong. But I tried to fight that and it just get to my head a nd I told my bf the whole thing. And he went to talk to his friend and he said it was a joke and I just I guess went with it. But last week I ask the gay friend if like public gathering count as going to his house with his family and then he said no and so I said “okay I am gonna go”. But, he stop me with saying “you may have the virus and shouldn’t go”. And I replied “no I don’t I know for sure in that. And he replies I may have it because of the daycare I work in. I told him that makes no sense and if they do we will make sure they don’t come ya know. He said nope you don’t know. And then I mention my bf brother girlfriend on how she come mostly everyday and I said “so she has the right to go but I can’t” then he reply “yes because she doesn’t take care of gremlins”. I was pissed at him and we started arguing. And then he ended with “if you love him you won’t go”. But I do love him. I know because he really want me to go. And so I did went and told my bf the whole thing crying. He just gets in my head. Am I doing the right thing? I feel like I make him happy or am I just wrong like his gay friend said. I don’t know who to ask for problems with my bf. I don’t have friends and family they don’t know any of the butt stuff or this. What should I do ?