I need a little bit of support or maybe clarity from someone who has been in my situation. I am not against abortion in any way. But for myself I do have issues getting one because I’m married, I love my husband, and I have 2 living kids already. But here I am 10 months pp and 9 weeks pregnant. We did everything in our power to not conceive again but it still happened and I found out at 6 weeks when I had morning sickness. I don’t judge anyone that’s gotten one as I understand why they exist and why they’re important. I’m struggling with my mental health. I take Zoloft and I’m on month 5 and it’s BARELY helping. My husband is in the military and raising 2 kids alone is hard enough. He was supposed to get a vasectomy but they’ve been sending him on field rotations nonstop since November 2019. We had a 3-6 month waiting period to get one after our last child was born so we never got around to it I guess. I’m regretting that.

I guess my fear is that adding one more child will send me over the edge. I’m on autopilot already and my second child is finally weaned and taking sippy cups. I just want to cry. How do I pick which child lives? I love my kids. I don’t want to regret this decision later on. Idk who to talk to. My family knows I’m pregnant so if I got an abortion I’d have to explain that or lie and say I miscarried. Both are horrible for me to even speak out loud. In my opinion. I’m so lost. Money isn’t an issue, it’s mainly my mental health. I can’t do adoption either.