I feel like I have an unhealthy relationship with sexual things in general. I know it's fine to have sex and masturbate as long as it's consensual and everything but I can't help but feel guilty. I get uncomfortable at even the desire to or thought of masturbating. Whenever something bad happens that is obviously out of my control, I can't help but blame it on the fact that I gave into temptation and masturbated. I know it sounds so silly to think that the universe is punishing me for doing something natural but I can't help but feel this way. I spent money on 3 vibrators I can't even allow myself to use. Any suggestions?