I’ve always been the girl guys want to date and have sex with but i’ve never ever dated anyone or told someone my feelings because of these reasons i’m about to say. Simply because i cannot trust any man ever.

So the first story is about my gymnastics coach. i was 10 years old and he was a new coach. everyone got weird creepy vibes from him but i never understood why because i was too young. it started out slow he would give really tight hugs and he would put his hands on my ass every time he would hug me. then he would start grabbing me in my chest area and same with my ass again. one time he even tried to stick a finger up my ass while spotting me and that’s when i started to feel violated. then throughout the 3 years he was there he would say and do stuff making me feel uncomfortable. one time he even slapped my ass so hard i went home crying and saw there was a hand mark there. i started to have enough and talked to my peers about it and they were going through the same so i reported it. he was then fired and sent to court for trying to rape older girls that went to my gym one time at practice.

Then i have stories of this year. throughout middle school older boys would hit on me. it got to the point i used to wear jackets around my waist so no one could look at me from behind. then this year when i finally feel comfortable and stopped wearing jackets around my waist my own guy friends started slapping my ass in the lunch line so hard that they were leaving welts and bruises on my thighs and ass. they were my friends for 2 years i thought i could trust them. it got to the point where they would start video taping my ass in the hallway. it got so bad to the point they threatened to rape me. that’s when i had enough and told my friends about it. even a few of my other guy friends had enough and reported it too. but the school said that the guys did nothing wrong and they shouldn’t be punished for sexual assault. and then a few months later i started to catch feelings for this guy who was always so sweet to me and he liked me back. but there was one problem i was so stupid because i should have remembered how popular he was and all the popular guys are just assholes. and he started to do the same as those guys earlier. i’m sorry but i dunno what to do anymore. i feel so broken i know i was never raped like some people here have been but i keep going through this it’s been 5 years of this non stop i can’t take it anymore. can someone help me??

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