Autism

Alexis

So my son will be 3 very soon. I am pregnant with his little brother! My son's name is Hunter and Lincoln is what I'm naming his little brother but I made this post today to try and explain how I feel about life right now. Can anyone relate?

(This is the post I posted on my personal Facebook) I'm excited to have a 2nd son. But I'm terrified for the future and I know I shouldn't worry yet and I'm not wishing for Lincoln to have autism but I'm terrified if he is "normal". Brothers always seem to be best friends and trust me I'm not dumbing down Hunter, but if Lincoln is "normal" he's gonna talk, he's gonna live a normal life. I don't usually like thinking of the what ifs with Hunter cause I'm not completely sure what the future holds. I just want the best for both of them but I don't want Lincoln to feel like Hunter is his responsibility. Truthfully I don't want any of my kids to feel like that. But I feel like them being brothers is gonna be different I feel like they are gonna be close. Idek I feel guilty even typing this. I know I have a whole lifetime to worry about this type of stuff but I think since I never truthfully thought about Hunter's future, I just live day by day. Trying to think of Lincoln's future is messing with me. I know I have 2 other kids. But autism is seen more in boys. I didn't even worry about this stuff with Calli or Caydence. I'm not sure if I'm just more worried because everyone, before they had kids thought of the what ifs of having kids and my what ifs included having boys that were close in age and close in general. I just never included autism in those plans.