So I went through my mans phone because I had an odd feeling about something and find in his caller ID app thy says he’s been messaging a number not saved, but the messages are deleted. So I message the number and she tells me that he’s reached out to her last week. I’m like omg he’s fucking cheating on me... so I bring it up to him and make it seem like she contacted me and left it at that so he can explain.... we’ll he tells me that he didn’t want to tell me until after I gave birth so I wouldn’t stress... but that he heard a rumor and had to confirm with her... I ask what rumor. Apparently she gave birth to a baby boy in February and that there’s a possibility it could be his.... I take care of his oldest daughter like my own and we have a 20 month old baby girl, I’m currently pregnant with his son.... what he’s telling me is he doesn’t understand why she went through the whole pregnancy without contacting him and why he had to hear it from someone else instead of her... I’m so heartbroken... we had broke up for like 10 months and after calculating it, it happened while we weren’t together... I don’t know what to do if the test comes back and it is his, I was supposed to be giving him his first son which he’s always wanted a boy, and now I feel like I’m getting that taken away from me. Both the boys will be 2 months apart and after what I went through when we were broken up I can’t picture me helping him with that child if it is his... that was the darkest time of my life and right when I felt like we were getting over that time in our life I feel like now there will be a child to constantly remind me of why we broke up in the first place 😭😭😭 I need advice, is it sad to say that I want nothing to do with that child? He told me if it is his he wouldn’t leave the kid fatherless.. and as much as I agree I just can’t see myself helping him take care of him...

UPDATE: after being mad and hurt for a few days, I’ve taken a step back to come to the conclusion that I really can’t be taking it out on him. You guys are right, he didn’t cheat and it was something that happened while we weren’t together.... we talked about it and I apologized for saying some pretty hurtful things. We have to wait til there no longer is this lockdown for the coronavirus so we can go take the test. I told him that I will be here through everything and if it does come back as his child then WE would be raising him together when it is our time since it is an innocent child and it’s not his fault. Thank you for your advise, I guess I needed some time to vent and really look at the big picture. He said he was so sorry to put me through all this especially while pregnant, that I don’t deserve any of this. I guess I’ll let you guys know once we get the test results.