need some support

I recently found out I'm pregnant with baby #6. I really did NOT want another baby. I was on the pill, switched pills in December or January, had miscarriage in February & ended up pregnant again in March, even though I took the pill. I scheduled an appt with planned parenthood because I wanted to go through with the pill but apparently they're so busy they can't get me in til May 12 & I'll be roughly 10wks so it would have to be a surgical abortion which I really didnt want to go through. They said the whole thing would be about 5 hours & total would be around $540, $200 down at first appt. rest due at next appt, so who knows how far along I would be then... I mentally dont think I could go through with. My boyfriend doesn't really talk to me just says he supports me with either decision. I dont have friends to talk to & I dont talk to my family because if I try to talk about personal things they tell the rest of the family so that's obviously a no-go... I just didnt think it would be so hard to get the pill & why they couldn't get me in sooner..