Should i feel ashamed?

This would be my technical third abortion if i decided to go through with it. Does that make me a bad person. I was 16 the forst time and didn't have a choice my mom pushed for it.

I had one about a year ago it was a miscarriage but my body didn't flush it away so I had to have another one.

And now I'm 20 and I live with my mom and dad and my fiancee. I'll be 21 in October.

Just I don't know if i can do this I'm not on my own I don't have a house. I haven't finished school but idk if I can do this a third time.