He’s acting up once we are gone...

heres a backstory , My relationship is about almost 4 years long . I been through hell and back with my spouse , from him cheating ; meeting up his ex at a hotel , to having me walk from work to his moms at night while he met up with a female , to Chatting and getting nasty photos from women....now It was hard but I still took him back , I knew I had a choice to leave but stayed and forgave although it was back to back. Call me stupid ,

but we worked through about 2 years into our relationship I found out I was pregnant and well Everything stopped him cheating and all so everything was good then.

Around January 2020 we had our apartment and honestly shit was BAD to be straight honest , we were rocky constant arguing and all . Well around that time My Then bestfriend had asked if she can use my old Facebook ( it was deactivated since my Spouse didn’t want me to have one ; I had it before we met )

so she can Basically “ Check up on her dude “ as she said and well I didn’t have no issues but didn’t think than that I could’ve talked to my spouse about it and let him know ahead of time but didn’t .

Around March - he basically found out about it , and it started a whole argument which I took part but the problem was I gave her the Info she just changed everything cause well I didn’t need the thing and

well he basically took things into his own hands and Messaged my bestfriend threatening her for the information and well she went ghost and well I’m left with a fucked up relationship and well no longer friends with her because all this bullshit and her changing the info and well no contact to Even Back up what she did and that I wasn’t on it ...well that happened...

So things Got Honestly bad and he couldn’t trust me anymore which I understand I did it behind his back and I was willing to show him like I’m not on that .

Than One night he decided to Go through my phone and well let me add I had a iPhone 6plus so iCloud backs out old stuff up ; well when we was looking through my current phone he went through blocked numbers and Found 2 numbers blocked and Around the time my kids Started school in August of 2019 I had seen two of my guy friends and got their numbers they knew I was basically married and my kids it wasn’t nothing of that BUT it was wrong just for the simple fact that I didn’t tell my boyfriend And well after catching up with them I just didn’t feel right and blocked the number since I texted them said “ hey it’s Sabrina “ you know how so the other person has your number.

Well..he found about That and I lied I’m not going to lie but I panicked because I wasn’t to sure how he was going to react but than I told him the truth and well that caused another issue and well he totally didn’t Trust me but we ended up working things and telling each other to work through .

He did have times were it just hit him and bothered him but things were good .

Now that y’all know the back story...

Well back to now...He got called for a job out in Austin we left Tuesday and me and the kids stayed For two days and got back barely today , we were good and all he kissed me gave me a hug and all before I left and now he’s acting like this .

* I DO WANT TO ADD .

I know what I did was wrong and I failed as a girlfriend and I pay for it everyday but i try and prove that what I did was fucked up and That it’ll never happen again and it was never on any lustful or cheating thing...

Please don’t attack me I’m just looking into advice...