Can i ran here? Sorry😭

Hi, ttc is the worst and harder when u have to deal with ur bfn alone. My husband has performance anxiety so i hide when i test so he wont get pressured, i hide mi opks so he wont know its go time, i hide the first day of my cycle so he wont calculate when am around O time. Therefore that makes it harder cos i face failure alone each month. I know its hard sometimes i would loved to say something but i dont wanna ruin my chances next cycle cos hubby cant perform when pressured.

Its just so hard and this cycle was harder cos it was my first round of clomid😭😭😢. Please pray for bme its been almost 2 years with both us been said "normal with no issues".