Honeymoon phase over or Toxic +

Been in a relationship for almost a year

Met in June

Found out in February he fucked my manager before he fwm supposedly and I’m pretty sure ppl know .. he says they don’t

Been broken up since March 10

Aquarius + Sagg sun

Engaged without the ring I guess .

Moved in nov 27

Lived together with the grandparents, was out my comfort zone

Went to work n depended on them

Plan to get stuff right and get our own place

After 5 months

Began doing everything together to nothing

We had physical altercations but I thought nothing of it, from the pushing, yelling and choking, to breaking things but

I knew he was cheating when he stopped wanting to have sex 24/7, claiming hes tired, didn’t give me oral, made it seem like all I talked about was sex and I alway complained basically & starting going out and he always threatened to it he started and didn’t come back til 4-9am some days and didn’t want to have sex or anything and always came back zooted up and high and drunk and disrespectful.

He has mother issues and it makes me think that sometimes when he does and say stuff he claim he doesn’t mean he’s subconsciously taking it out on me

Both payed 150 rent

I didn’t pay my last month to the Gparents because he said he would

Now he lost his job and asks me for money and comes to see me jus to get into an argument and the last thing he said is “you still gon fwm on that $40 “ I said no

Ever since i moved out back home he’s claiming that I ain’t do shit for him but it was as of basically the Gparents kicked me out, changed my door number code, packed my things and went through and kept certain things and acted as if they didn’t know what was going on and that my ex was mad and it was not their business and our business .. but had the nerve to pull up at my moms house at 5am in another b***h car who stays in our city cause I saw her library card with loud music, coke, pills and drunk mind you he has a DUI already and is on parole and before anyone says anything yes I know he’s sounds like he’s not that good of a person but he is well was idk if he’s narcissistic or what .. idk .. I have no one to turn to so I jus turned to my GLOW friends. But anyway I know he loved me when we were together and all but I wanna continue our relationship but it’s like right now we are playing phone games like because we can’t see each other because if he burned both bridges wit our families and mind you it makes me feel like if you keep blocking me and unblocking me on IG and then texting me on Pinterest and all trying to get my attention and all that it makes me think

Like what are you trying to tell me and its like IDk I have no one to vent to

. I’m jus so heartbroken💔 it’s so hard to pull myself together rn