I think I completely messed up my life. I try to do the best thing but I can help or make other people happy. Me and my boyfriend of seven years I’ve been going through a lot lately. I want to be with him but I feel like everybody thinks that I shouldn’t be with him and I don’t want to disappoint my family so I keep trying to stay away from him but I can’t help that I love him and I can’t help that I want to be with him. Yesterday I put down a security deposit on a new apartment for myself because I thought maybe we could live apart if we live apart for a while we will be OK without each other but now I’m feeling super regretful about moving into my own space when I feel that I would truly truly rather be with him. I didn’t tell him though and now I don’t know what to do.I feel like I keep making my life harder than it has to be and I’m scared.