So when I was in grade 7 i got involved with a grade 10.. please no judgement we were honestly friends, and then it grew, our families knew each other and that’s why we dated but i really wish they stopped it..

in grade 7, we did sexual things.. no sex, but other stuff and I honestly didn’t know what i was doing, at that point of being involved with him I haven’t even had sex ed in my class..

There were lots of time where we were doing stuff, and now that i look back at it, i had no idea what i was doing? I was grade 7, and he was grade 10? was that wrong on his part?

There were plenty of times where i would ask to just hangout and no more sexual things but he would get so angry it terrified me.. this guy never left my life till the end of grade 9 sometime.. he cheated on me a lot, and when i would try and leave he would say he was going to kill himself, not reply for hours and call back laughing like it was a big deal..

I just look back at things and i feel disgusted.. like i never actually wanted to do things? i tried to stop a lot but he was so toxic.. was i taken advantage of?