Sad and lonely and 7 weeks pregnant.

Maggs • My family is my life. I have a 3 year old and another on the way.
A few days ago I found out I was pregnant...a few weeks ago I lost my best friend. My Dad. He died a horrible painful death...I literally watched my father die a little more each day for about 2 months. He finally passed away Oct 17th. I'm so heart broken. He always loved hearing the news of a new baby...I'm so sad I won't be able to tell him and see his reaction. I told my fiance and his reaction was more shocked than anything. He says because we've had sex so little these past few months...I feel so alone...angry...I feel like I shouldn't have told my fiance till idk till I couldn't hide it anymore. I haven't told anyone else. We are all still grieving...I wish my Dad was here, I miss him so much. Through out this whole pregnancy I know I'll be sad because I'll want him to be here with me. My fiance is a truck driver so he's not always hoke often either...but at this point I feel like that's okay. I don't really want to be around him right now. I guess I could get a part time job. Pay bills and keep my mind busy.