I had to post this anonymously because I dont want to be judged.

Okay so here goes, I has my son last May and it's been the best thing that's ever happened to me.

But I've been struggling with parenting and I've been having bad anxiety because I'm afraid for my son. I dont want him to go through what I went through I dont trust anyone around him except my husband. I dont rest because I never let anyone else take him. I was molested by my uncle for many years, countless times and my family did nothing about it, they first called me a liar then he confessed after I tried to kill myself, then they forced the whole thing to disappear and made me still stay around him and see him every day. I hated him, I hated everyone, I hated myself. It made me hate intimacy. Then he died and I got married and I thought I was okay, but hormones having raging and I just get so scared that the same could happen to my baby. Even though he is a boy, it happens to them to.

I am to embarrassed to talk to anyone about it even though I know I need help.