Feeling like a terrible mom

I’m expecting #2. Found out about a week ago that it’s our second boy. I really had my heart set on a girl and was disappointed when it wasn’t.

I’m thankful that he’s healthy... I know I’ll love him once he’s here... I know my son will love having a baby brother...

However,

I can’t get excited about it. I don’t have any interest in talking about names, I have a hard time referring to the bump as “he”.. I still say “baby”. Seeing girl gender reveals puts me in a bad mood.

I don’t want to feel this way, I want to be grateful for this pregnancy.... I’m just struggling.