Self esteem issues postpartum

Anyone else dealing with body image issues? I’m 4 weeks postpartum. Before pregnancy I had body image issues including a mild eating disorder and working out everyday and sometime multiple times a day. I had finally reached my perfect body image right before I got pregnant. I was so confident and loved my body. My eating disorder had subsided and I was being happy and healthy. Now that I’m postpartum I’m having a really hard time. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror, let alone eat. I’m barely eating at all each day again. Im maybe eating the required amount of food for a day within a 3-5 day span. I hate that I’m doing this to myself again but I don’t know how to stop. I’m no hungry and food make my stomach cringe. I have stretch marks and so much excess chub and my skin feels so flabby. I tried working out yesterday, I know I’m not supposed yet because I haven’t been cleared and I wayyy overdid it. I’ve been hurting ever since pretty bad. So bad I thought I had burst my appendix. I just started working out and while working out I kept thinking about how gross my body looks and I just couldn’t stop working out until I physically couldn’t anymore. I just need someone to talk to that is having similar issues. I know I need to talk to a therapist but I can’t get in for another 3 months to see anyone.

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