Opks getting me down!

Flossy • Tue, May 05 • 35, married. UK. Mama to Little P 👼🏼💕

Anyone else get really down when you get negative after negative opk?! Testing twice a day since CD12 and nothing. We’re hoping to be using a gender sway method so I need to be able to determine ovulation. But CD19 and not even a rise. I just want to cry! 😓😓😓