I’m Just Tired..

I’m really tired of feeling like I’m not appreciated. I’m 21, in college, I have a 1 year old and I’m 15 weeks pregnant. However, I was not ready for this second pregnancy but it’s my responsibility so I’m gonna do my fucking job. My boyfriend feels like I owe him something for some reason. He feels like I should be cooking for him 24/7 and cleaning up behind him all the time. I take care of our 1 year old, if I ever ask him to do something he will wait until he feels like it, to do ANYTHING. From changing pampers, giving baths or even paying attention to her. He will focus more on his phone or his game than to even play with her. When she cries he just tells her to be quiet or tries to make her lay down and I always say “maybe if you interact with her she won’t do that” and he’ll ignore me. We were at my grandmothers house once and I was helping my granny with something and she kept crying and my granny told him maybe he should get off his phone and pay attention to her. He can’t even put her to sleep without getting overly frustrated and says it’s my fault because I should’ve stopped breastfeeding her when he told me to. Like that’s ridiculous. Tonight we had this big argument about how he feels like I need to get up and cook for him and clean up after him no matter how I feel and I told him he sounds crazy. He says that I should want to do that for him, I told him he should want to spend time with his daughter and pay attention to her when I ask him too, I SHOULDNT EVEN HAVE TO ASK HIM ANYTHING WHEN IT COMES TO HER. He’s like “that’s not what we’re talking about” well that’s what IM TALKING ABOUT. You don’t get no reward for not doing shit. I don’t even get to do my homework on time because I’ll ask him to watch her so I can do my work and he’ll just get on his phone and she’ll climb right in my lap. Like why are you here if you’re not going to help me out?! I’ve been feeling this way for a LONG time. He doesn’t understand that I don’t need him in my way. I don’t wanna feel like I’m his mother. But don’t treat me like I’m a damn maid when I’m doing my job and yours already.. tf 😒