TW r*pe -Is it ok to not label what happened to me as rape

Ok so something happened to me like 6 months ago and I posted about it on here and everyone basically told me it was rape, but deep down I just want to deny that it was rape and it was actually just a misunderstanding. I don’t want to feel like someone took advantage of me like that, i don’t want to be called a rape victim, because I feel embarrassed. Not that it’s embarrassing to be a rape victim but for me it is. The day after the event happened, I was crying a lot and really depressed, but now I don’t feel anything anymore and barely think about it, or try not to because then I just feel embarrassed like it never should have happened to me.

I know I technically did get raped, but it doesn’t really feel like I did, idk how to explain this. Hopefully it made sense. I hope I didn’t offend anyone with this and someone understands what I’m talking about !