Do you ever feel like you would just want to see those 2 lines just so you know you can get pregnant even if outcome could be miscarriage. Don't get me wrong, I believe that miscarriage is destroying and it's one of my biggest fears but I never was in position to even test because I get my AF on 12-13dpo and always want to wait to be late but AF is always on time. I'm just wondering will I ever convince a child, can I even get pregnant? I just want to see 2 lines..I hope that someone can relate and that I'm not awful an human being for thinking like this (sometimes not all the time)..TTC is really hard and sometimes I can't believe who I become...