I’m just sad

Hey y’all! Sorry i really just need to vent and it’s hard to talk about with many people.. I guess I’ll start with me and DH are both 21 (yes i know young) and have been TTC since February 2018.. no luck. It’s so frustrating that every single month i trick myself into thinking I’m having symptoms, every month i get both of our hopes up when I’m a few days late, and then i have to be the bearer of bad news and tell him that i just psyched us up again.. I’m so angry and sad.. i had the fear of god put into me, if you have sex, you’ll get pregnant.. I FRICKIN WISH.