So I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years now, we have one baby who will be 1 in a couple weeks.. our relationship has been full of problems since the beginning. Which I know I should’ve left back then, but I didn’t... we break up & he leaves, threatens so smash my vehicle, threatens to kill me or anyone else if I even talk to someone else, but yet when he leaves he has plenty of fish transactions on his bank account. Loving other females pictures, and I get numerous messages from women saying he’s trying to talk to them. He spends hundreds of dollars on drugs when he leaves, then pulls his sweet side out of his ass till I take him back, he comes back and everything is the same. The Xbox goes on the minute he opens his eyes, goes off & he shuts his eyes. Meanwhile I ask him if he wants to take the baby for a walk, or if we can go for a drive to get out of the house and he tells me I can go he doesn’t have too. We literally don’t have a conversation all day, only time he’s smiling or happy is when he’s talking to his friends on the game... Everytime we break up I say this is the end but then I take him back, I need help.. I need to know how to stay away, and not go back.. he figures he doesn’t have to financially help me anymore with bills or rent cause I kick him out all the time, *twice in the last 4 months* because he was being shady on his phone.. I’ve went through emotional abuse, physical abuse with black eyes, bruises all over my body, busted lip, & now I’m starting to feel the sexual abuse because if I say no to sex he’s mad and keeps begging me till I say yes.. but why would I want to lay down at night and have sex with someone who couldn’t even give me a minute all day to spend time with me.. any words he does say to me through out the day, is how dumb i am, how there’s something wrong with me because I nag him about wanting to do things together.. my biggest fear is him being with someone else, but why should I worry about that when he’s not even a great person to be with... there’s so many things he does wrong. I’m miserable with him but miserable without him, someone please help me and tell me what to do because I can’t do this much longer...