Vent time 🤕🤧

I found out this mid February that I am pregnant with my second baby. I had My babyboy in July and he was born with Trisomy 21, I love him to death he is honestly a gift from god! This time around it is a little girl I will be giving birth to this late August/early September. I’m very nervous and a little worried because, they have tested me to see if this one will be born extraordinary like Mateo and it had came back as negative. However I don’t really believe the testing because his came back negative too and they just kept saying he was small and that is exactly what they are telling me about her now. So I’m kinda nervous that when she arrives she will also have trisomy 21 and I would definitely not mind 2 of these beautiful little extraordinary babies but I just wanna be prepared and I can’t do that if they just keep telling me the same things they did with him. My father also just committed suicide on 3/31 and I am 20 the eldest child of 3, so It has been stressful the last 2 months for me to get everything done and the doctor telling me she is smaller just makes things for me a tiny bit more stressful.

My fiancé:

Been dating for 5 years and now My fiancé of 1 1/2 years does not help as much as I’d like him to in ways I’m needing/wanting example: like me needing a friend when it comes to my feelings/emotions .. he does not listen or understand most of the time and he is un-heartful/touching, un-sentimental, and very un-romantic. I am not sure if it’s because he does not know how to be/do that or if he just doesn’t like it or does not want to but it really makes things harder for me.. especially the times when I really do need someone to just talk and listen but someone to wipe the tear and tell me everything will be okay and hug me instead of just watch that tear roll and keep quiet and then say “can you stop?” or “stop you don’t gotta be like that” or “stop thinking negative” he is also pushy in ways I absolutely hate he blames me for a few things I can never forgive and forget, he is always trying to push being sexual in the most wrong times, I try to explain to him I need care and love and thought but it seems he doesn’t listen and now we have a child which I thought would open his eyes a little more but it seems they have not so I’m not sure how else to get him to care more..

I feel I do a lot wrong and I’m nervous so... I just need some advice.