Terrified of 2nd birth!

Last August I gave birth to my amazing son and that in itself was traumatizing lol i am pregnant again and it was semi planned but I’m even more scared this time! My mind keeps making me want to get an abortion because my anxiety is so high about giving birth again. I know that is so irrational and I won’t ever abort my baby, but I’m just sharing my real thoughts! I keep thinking what if I die in labor because I got pregnant too soon, what if I can’t push and my baby dies during labor, what if I have to have a c section, etc...

Please please share your stories of your 2nd and onwards birth stories. Was each birth worse than before? Was it easier?

I’m so scared 😩