7years TTC

I guess this is the only platform I can truly vent and say how I feel.

This journey feels so alone... I have an amazing husband. He is really supportive, he is there for every appointment... He engage with doctors and really asks the necessary questions.

But through all this, it still feel like a journey that I trod alone... I had a breakdown Saturday, I just couldnt anymore... I literally cried out to God why me?

I feel like I am the throw away child... God knows how much I want this... I even went as far as saying dont I deserve a child... What have I done so wrong that I dont deserve a child...

I dunno if I can take another negative test... Testing saturday threw me off the edge... But 7years of the same torture... Pills, injections, doctors, gynecologist I dunno how much longer I can do this.

I dont know anymore, but I do feel like giving up...