Living away from home

So I guess I just wanted to see how other people deal with living away from home.

I moved away 5 and a half years ago and don’t get me wrong. Most of the time I am okay, but sometimes I get so low because I can’t just nip over to see friends and family.

I think lockdown is making it worse, I’ve got 3 days off now and normally I would just drive 6 hours and go home for a few days but evidently I can’t atm.

How does everyone else manage with this?

Moving home isn’t an option for work or my partner, and we’re buying our first house now.

I regularly FaceTime my family and text most days. I just don’t know how to deal with the low moods. It’s like some days I’m super high and happy and then most days I’m so low all I can do is sleep and cry.

I feel so guilty I’m putting my partner through this, I know he doesn’t mind and he is pretty supportive but the guilty feeling is still there.

Any advice would be gratefully received!