Just need to vent

Hey everyone I am just going thruuuu it right now at 26 weeks pregnant and just wanna let it out and maybe get some support.

I’ve been out of work since March due to covid which I know is not just me but I’m the opposite of a homebody and LOVE to work. I’m a server and being around people is just who I am. And because I’m pregnant I haven’t really seen any friends and it’s been rough.

But may 11th my grandma died of congestive heart failure and we were super close. I’ve lived with her my entire life and she was always my go to person. I had 4 miscarriages before this successful pregnancy hoping she’d be around to meet my baby. My fiancé and I even planned our wedding ASAP to make sure she’d be there. But now she won’t be here for either and it’s absolutely crushing me.

We have a large conjoined house with my grandparents. When I got pregnant the first time we decided to fully finish our side of the basement because my grandparents side had a bathroom and spare room. My grandma said to use that spare room as our nursery. We used funds my parents had set aside for our first place to do so. My fiancé and I went to start the nursery in that spare room the other day and my grandpa came down and said that he wasn’t in favor of this anymore and that we couldn’t use it. So now I’m about to be entering my third trimester with no place to set up for my baby. In the middle of a pandemic.

I’m starting to feel slightly depressed and I just don’t even know where to go from here😔