Why do I feel SO guilty???

Being a mother is such a weird thing. My son turned two in March and tonight for the first time ever I put him down in his bed, told him good night and closed the door for him to go to sleep by himself. Idk if I’m being over emotional about it or what but my mama heart just hurts. He got out of his bed twice and walked to the door, I told him to go back to lay in his bed and he did (I could hear his little feet through the door) then from his bed he called out for me two or three times, in a 15 minute span and then fell asleep.

So it was a win and not at all traumatizing, there was maybe 30 seconds of crying. But I just feel bad he went to sleep asking for me and I wasn’t there.

Do these kinds of feelings go away when you have more babies or is this a forever thing?

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