I don’t know what to believe.

So back in Christmas, my family had a huge get together in Mexico. My bf was with me for the holidays. We all drank and had fun but my bf got carried away with the alcohol. He was acting very violent. At first he was very hyper but then he became physically red and started breathing heavy. My cousins took him away from me where I saw he started to kick his car. I asked my cousins what was wrong and they told he got carried away with the alcohol. For New Years, he drank again and was screaming at me because I didn’t want to leave the party. I told him I wanted to be with the family and he said he wanted to go have sex. 😳 again, he left me and went to “bed.”

So time has obviously passed and my bf has been acting fine. He’s calm and we don’t argue at all. He’s very loveable.

About 2 months ago, I was chatting with my cousin via Instagram. He asked me about my bf. I told him things were ok. He then said, “I think he was doing meth when you guys came.” I got upset and asked him questions. I asked him “why didn’t you say anything when i was there?” So he said he thought I knew and the signs were obvious. I decided to stay silent.

Around March, my uncle from Kansas Came. He asked me how things were with my bf. I told him things were fine. Then he said “I think you deserve better. He’s up to no good” so at this point I’m getting mad. What is going on!!!!

So then my mom was on the phone with an aunt that lives in Mexico. The topic Came up and she told my mom that her daughters saw my bf walking in the streets talking to himself. 🤨

My anxiety levels have gone up big time! People are obviously talking about my bf and I have no clue. How does my family know about my bf???

Im really close to his family so I decided to talk to his uncle. We were chatting a bit via Facebook when he told me to take care of my bf. So I ask him. He lives in Mexico too. He told me that when he went to Mexico, he had to chase my bf with a water hose because he was going psycho. He was screaming and hitting the walls.

I started seeing a therapist Bc I’m going through anxiety. She started asking me about my family and intimate relationships. I brought this whole issue about everyone telling me my bf is not a good person. I told her that he smokes weed and all that stuff that went on during the holidays. The first thing she said, “are you sure he wasn’t on meth?” So I started crying. She said she was seeing signs of domestic violence. I have an appointment in 2 weeks.

I’ve been writing in my journal ways to confront my bf. I don’t want to tell him that several people have told me and offend him. I asked him how he got weed in Mexico and he told me my cousin sold him weed!!!!! He said he also offered meth but he got freaked out and ran away. I’m so lost!!!