Prayers appreciated

Alli

I'm feeling completely lost. It's been 5 years of consistent miscarriages, while not TTC. Now that we have been TTC for 9 months, absolutely nothing. Not even chemicals. Why is it as soon as we start trying, I stop conceiving?.. I guess all I'm asking is for prayers and love that my husband and I can finally be blessed with our first born and rainbow baby. We are starting to loose that hope we will be parents..