Left my abusive bf last week

I thought I was having the time of my life for about 10 months until we moved together he nearly stabbed me started to abuse me emotionally and mentally more and more then he would always make up... until last week I thought that he would kill me. Now I live in a hostel because of his psychopath self. I still love him so much... even though he could have killed me.... at least i came out of the shock now and starting to speak and eat. :( i feel like my relationship was stripped away and not even ended or anything like it’s just on a break until we go to court and stuff (or not). I know it’s over but ....... just like this from one second to another I didn’t even get to speak to him the police just separated us