I’m really scared of everything. All of this time alone has me really trapped in my own head.

I’m lonely. I don’t wanna graduate next May. I want to know I’m going to be okay on my own. I want to know I’ll be happy and successful in work and love and friends and I don’t know if any of that is possible.

I’ve been hyperfixating on movies to distract myself. Only problem is, that’s the field I’m going into, and all it does is make me more anxious about what’s coming next. “Where am I gonna live?” “Am I gonna find work?” “Am I even good enough for this?”

I feel like my world is crashing down around me and I’m only 20 years old. I’m scared and I’m overwhelmed.

And all I want to do is feel normal.