5 weeks and no symptoms

Hi everyone, I’m writing because I’m desperate and need some of your great advices.

I had 2 miscarriages, a missed miscarriage by Christmas (9 weeks) and a chemical one a couple of months ago.

I’m 5w2d pregnant now and I’m terrified. I’m so scared of losing this baby, I don’t think I can go through all of that again.

I was having fatigue, a little bit of nausea, tiredness, a bit of cramps, etc which made me very happy as I thought it was all good, but last Friday (6 days ago) I went with my daughter to the park and it was a terrible idea.

She is only 21 months old and wanted to do so many things. I had to chase her everywhere, lift her many times, etc, all because I didn’t want to tell one of my friends I was pregnant and agreed to go.

Then that night I had light brown spotting and the next day a really horrible back pain. I thought the worse, I was sure I was going to have another miscarriage, all my symptoms also stopped that day. I never bleed again and on Monday I had a blood test and my hcg levels were great, comparing to another test from last week.

Am I still pregnant? As I don’t feel pregnant anymore. My dr told me is all “normal” but is it really? My scan will not be until almost 2 more weeks. Can you please tell me a little bit of your own similar experiences and what happened?

I need some support... 🙏🏻💛