Anyone just feel bummed

Ugh I feel so bummed out already even though I’m a week before my missed period. I just feel like I won’t be pregnant. We only got to BD once the day before ovulation. This month is my boyfriends birthday and Father’s Day. My period is supposed to be here the day before his birthday and I wanted so badly to make it into a awesome surprise. I have two kids already but he doesn’t have any and wants one of his own. I’m 30 and really don’t want this process to take forever. TTC is just down right depressing sometimes 😩