No fun w/o boyfriend

I can't have fun without my boyfriend

I don't have lots of friends but he does and he has lots of fun with them and he's out everyday and i just sit in my bedroom and sulk

And it's kind of annoying that he doesn't need me at all to have fun and I'm so dependent on him

I'm an introvert person and before he came along i was happy just sitting in my bedroom reading books watching movies even being alone

But after these past 3 years that we've been together i've realized what i've been missing and i can't go back to the way things were

I want to go out and have fun but i can't do it without him and I'm sad most of the time and I'm jealous of his friend because they're always together 🤦🏼‍♀️