I’m struggling

I have a 2 year old & a 1 month old... To be completely honest I’m struggling.

I need a break. I just need the world to stop & just be silent for like 5 minutes so I can catch my breath.

Everything is just so overwhelming right now & I just can’t do it anymore. I’m tired; not just sleepy tired but like mentally tired. Physically tired. I just flat out don’t want to be here anymore but I’m too chicken shit to do anything & I can’t bare the thought of never seeing my kids again.