I’ve been having major anxiety lately and I think it all stems from my scars that are there from infertility.

My husband wants us to visit his parents for the 4th of July for a week and I’m so terrified. He’s going to ask them to quarantine, but they’re part of the crowd that believes Covid is bs and everyone is overreacting so they never wear masks and they visit with friends and customers (they’re farmers and they have tons of customers who drop by randomly). We haven’t told them about <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, but my husband is planning to tell them that we’re ttc so hopefully they actually quarantine and take it seriously. I seriously doubt they will take it seriously, though.

I, on the other hand, have been quarantined and obsessing over sanitizing my groceries, wearing masks whenever I leave the house, not visiting with ANYONE, etc and I’ve been making my husband follow my rules too. He’s been obliging because he wants to keep us safe as well so that we stay healthy and on track for our transfer coming up in August. My protocol is a long protocol which consists of 2 months of Depot Lupron before starting any estrogen, progesterone, etc so I’ve been taking it very seriously because I don’t want to have to start over. My husband is worried, however, that his parents are getting older (his dad is 82) and our visits with them are limited. His little sister died 2 years ago and the last time we saw her was over the 4th of July, so this time of year for him is emotional. His parents live in an area with a low rate of transmission (around 60 cases total) and zero deaths, so he feels it’s safe. I’m not 100% convinced it’s safe because of the way his parents act so nonchalantly, but maybe I’m overreacting?

I’m so close to making an appointment with a psychologist because I seriously don’t know what to do about my anxiety. I want my transfer to go as smoothly as possible and Covid could mess everything up so I don’t know how to deal with this. The thought of potentially exposing myself for a week is so stressful! Has anyone talked to a therapist before? Did it help? What would you do in my situation? Also, my in laws live 7 hours away so we would have to stay with them.