Yesterday I got the diagnosis for my unborn baby of Tetralogy of fallot with PA/VSD/MAPCAS and a possible DORV.

So so long.

I can’t fall asleep, and when I do I just have nightmares about my baby having surgeries and dying.

I have so many appointments, I need groceries so badly, my step daughter is coming over for the week in an hour which was sprung on me last night and I’m so mentally exhausted I feel like I’ll be distant with her

And my partners Xbox shit the bed this morning and that’s his best way of coping with stress and I’m just so...so so so so tired. My head is in constant pain right now and I just want to cry but his daughter will be here shortly and I need to hold it together.

I don’t know why I’m posting this I just feel like I’m slowly losing my mind