I have been depressed before and I have attempted suicide but I survived and I have still had deep depression and today I just experienced darkest thought and I haven't had them since that day in the hospital which was 2 to 3 years ago so I adapted to the good thoughts and today I picked up a razor again after 1 yr clean and honestly I'm scared shitless bc I dont want the pain and memories to come back and I just really need some advice or someone to talk to before I fall deep in and not be able to come out 🖤😔