One of those days 😭

It's been a heck of a day and I'm exhausted and it's only 3 PM. It started out great. My baby who is almost 7 months only woke up once last night and woke up at 5:45 AM this morning, which for her is sleeping in. I put her back down to finish out her sleep and got in the shower around 6:30 before my husband was awake so I could enjoy some much needed alone time. I drank my coffee in the shower (I know is weird, but it's my favorite thing to do in the mornings) and enjoyed 30 solid minutes of a hot shower. Right after I got out of the shower she woke up a little after 7 which is a little early for her, but not too bad. My husband went and got her and she was in a really good mood. I made her breakfast and she had oranges for the first time and loved them. I didn't think she would quit eating them. She started fussing and I put her down for a nap around 9. That's when things started going sideways.

She only napped 30 minutes when she normally naps for an hour or more in the mornings. I tried to get her back to sleep but she just screamed for 30 minutes. So I got her up and fed her and laid her down in the living room floor with some toys so I could finish cleaning up from breakfast. Apparently she's recently figured out object permanence (yay!) because she screamed while she couldn't see me. Daddy couldn't please her, toys wouldn't please her. Not even her paci. So I went and got her and she immediately calmed down. And then she proceeded to fussy and/or cry the rest of the morning if I wasn't holding her. My baby wrap is in the laundry, but even if it was clean I can't do everything with her strapped to me. And she's also 18lbs and gets really heavy after a while. So I did what I could with her on my hip and then let her cry the rest of the time. I'm not one to let my baby cry, but I had to clean up the kitchen and her mess from breakfast. And I had to do some laundry or my husband and I will be going naked. And it's been rinse and repeat all day. She's so exhausted but just fought her nap for over an hour. She's finally asleep, but I'm afraid to lay her down. She's normally a really happy baby and really energetic and playful, but today she's had zero interest in playing. She just wants me to hold her. I try to oblige her when I can, but I can't hold her all day. And on top of that she wants to nurse every hour. But she'll nurse and then scream and nurse and scream and repeat for 20 minutes. I'm exhausted and all touched out today. I don't know if I can make it to dinner 😭 She hasn't been like this in a long time and she's such a happy and sweet baby. I know something is bothering her and I want to help her, but I am just so tired. Emotionally and physically. I've barely gotten any house work done today because she just wants to cling to me. And if I'm not holding her she screams and cries.

I just needed to vent and cry a little 😭

Here's a picture of my little cutie this morning before the 💩 hit the fan