Messed up world killed my relationship

I’ve been with my partner for a year and a half and it’s been so incredible 90% of the time. Getting quarantined with someone for 4 months finally broke the relationship. We have been through so much together and he’s the most gentle and caring person I’ve ever met. We’re trying to find a friendship through all of this because I don’t want to lose him completely but I’m a mess. I’ve lost my job due to corona and I’m staying on friends sofas. He is the love of my life and I’ve lost everything.

Sorry for my rant, I keep being told to stay strong but it’s hard.